The hard truth is, that yesterday at my 20 week ultrasound the doctor was unable to find our baby’s heartbeat. I had felt our baby boy moving and kicking the night before, but sometime between then and my appointment his little heart went still.
The hard truth is that in a few days I will have to go into the hospital and deliver my baby, but come home without him.
I know that there are women out there who have experienced multiple pregnancy losses. I know that every day parents lose children to things like illness, or accidents or other tragic events, and I’m sure that their trials are greater than mine. But the fact is that my heart is hurting. And my arms feel empty. And this is really hard.